We can’t help someone who refuses to help themself. A life time of reckless abandonment leads to destruction. We can out run the demons that cause us to numb our pain with alcohol, drugs, excessive spending, etc. and eventually our steps falter. I have recently witnessed not only a misstep, but legs that refused to support a man who only knew surrender to everything that leads to hopelessness. It put me at a crossroad and the only way I knew to turn was around and back to those who have never gotten a choice. My children did not get to chose me or their dad. But we chose to give them everything we never had. A home cemented in Christ. We will never fully abandon our children; physically or emotionally. Dont get me wrong, there are days I tap out the moment my husband walks through the door, but that’s one of the beauties of having a home with a mom and a loving father.  This afternoon when I looked into the brown eyes swimming in a pool of yellow, I knew it was probably the last time I